Monday, June 8, 2009, 1:50 AM
It's been so long since i updated my blog. From end of last year till now, near half a year so many things had happened. My dearest grandpa passed away at April. He suffered for eight months plus. With a tube at his throat down to his lungs, maybe he pass away, ending all this sufferings is better for him? I guess so. Seeing him like this, eighty plus years old still need to go through all this, it is really very heart broken. I can still remember clearly two days before he entered the hospital and all his sufferings start, he was sitting at the sofa looking at me and my mum preparing to carry our luggages out of the house, and he asked us is it we are leaving. I dunno why when i always think of that scene, i always feel like crying... just like now... Now i keep asking myself why i didn't stay for two more days. The last two days of his life where he can talk, laugh, eat, live happily... I remembered he look so upset when he know we are leaving and i promised to come back to see him again. And yet when i returned to taiwan two days later, after receiving news that he fainted at home, i saw him lying on the bed with tubes at his stomach and stuffs, it's just so saddening. I remembered that time i just keep thinking this can't be true, it's just two days and he's like this... And then i stayed at taiwan for a period of time, visiting him every night, help him massage his hands which are tied up, cause my grandpa will try to remove the tubes when he's awake. I remembered one time when i was massaging his hands, he suddenly held my hand, although his eyes were closed. It seems like he know that i'm here to see him. I can't attend his funeral as the date clashed with mid-year, fuck man, if i know even i studied and studied the wrong chapters that exam didn't came out, i should have just went to taiwan and attend his funeral. Can't see him one last time... luckily recently i went back to taiwan and get to go see his tomb.
Hmm let's change a topic bah. Haha change a mood too!
Yup so recently i had a rough planning of wad i'm gonna do. Next year, i'm going to learn to fly a plane at Singapore Youth Flying Club. My brother also started to learn to fly when he was sixteen near seventeen like that, so the same goes for me. My parents wanted s to learn how to fly since young. Okay i keep typing fly here like bird sia, i mean fly plane lah. Tsk i know wad you are thinking! Okay so yea, i going to learn how to fly next year. My mum want me to go get into aerospace when i enter poly, she said it will be very cool if i know how to fly a plane and fix a plane too like my father. Hey ppl, you all think a girl say she know how to fix a plane more cool or she know how to fly a plane is more cool? Haha or both? I know you guys will say OMG IS CATHERINE THAT STUPID GIRL THAT FIX AND FLY THE PLANE!!! IT'S WORSE THAN TERRORIST ATTACK! HAVEN'T FLY INTO THE SKY AND THE PLANE GONNA LOST IT WINGS! Haha you know wad? DUN WORRY THERE'S RED BULL!!! WOOHOO!!!
K haha i shall end the post here! Bye ppl! Goodnight and sweet dreams!!!
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